Finding comfort
I find myself sort of addicted to some nostalgic comfortable feeling lately. It’s weird. I disconnected a bit from civilisation and went into the amazon jungle for an extended period of time. I found myself remembering movies I wanted to revisit, and so I started writing them down. I started watching the whole Alien series again, also a bit in preparation for the newest installment Romulus. But also Predator series, to get into the AVP movies. I think being in the jungle reminded me of the first Predator movie in some way..
I also remembered playing AvP, I think the first one.. with fond memories. I’ve been saving up to get a Steam Deck soonish, maybe to replace my Switch but I’m not sure yet if I’m able to give it up.. But the prospect of getting the SD also brought along a flood of nostalgia. I went scouring Steam, for games I played when I was younger.. My wishlist started to grow exponentially and every week I would get notifications for some discount. I keep myself usually from buying, but still I couldn’t keep myself from all opportunities.. So I bought a few, in preparation for getting the SD and be able to enjoy it.
In a sense, I’m looking for an escape. For a comfortable world to dive into again. Something familiar, and yet something that also brings me back to those old times. I was just enjoying myself playing my games, behind my computer, alone. Not a worry in the world. Well maybe beating the next boss or actually finishing the game itself..
I even think the seed was planted a little earlier, when I started to build something on nekoweb. I got the idea of making fan sites.. or a collection, of things I grew up with. Shows, games and movies that in a way made me who I am today. Something to pay tribute to them. But I haven’t found the time or mindspace yet for it.